The Countdown begins.....

I have not blogged in over a month because I am just overwhelmed and haven't been able to turn to the right or the left, often not even able to form a sentence that makes sense. So, I'll give it my best shot today. The countdown begins for two special events in my life that will take place in the next couple of months. The first event to take place is a women's conference in Lake City, where my friend Barbara (www.theivypath.blogspot.com) has asked me to be one of the guest speakers. I will be writing more on this later. But for now I just want you to know that I don't take this task lightly. I am so unworthy to do this and have confided in Barbara that I have felt completely defeated on more than one occasion since she first asked me to be a part of this ministry. Can I just stop right here and ask you to pray for me....pray for God to keep me ever humble during this time and to anoint any words that would come out of my mouth, for those words to only be words that would glorify and honor our Savior. Aside from being overwhelmed by this, I'm also excited. Several of the women that are helping with this ministry and that will be attending this ministry, knew me before I knew Him. The whole theme of my blog "Who I am Instead" is that I know who I was presalvation, but that through Christ, I am a new creation...and even though I haven't "arrived" anywhere (I am a continuous work in progress), God is constantly purging the "ugly" out of me and for that I am thankful. The second event will take place on October 24th when my only daughter will be marrying a beautiful man named Joe! I absolutely can't wait to have him and his wonderful family in our lives. BUT, those of you that know me, know that I'm a "Mary", usually content to sit and listen and soak up life, not "do" (as Martha).....I'm working hard to incorporate some "Martha" in me and I pray daily for God to make me a "doer" but I am also very much a work in progress there. So, as excited as I am about this special day (that will take place in 84 days to be exact), I am also terrified that I'll fail my daughter with all my inadequacies. Starting today, me and her have a task to take care of every day until "the big day"...Many members of my church family and friends outside of my church have asked if they can do something to help me. I haven't contacted you to help because it feels like we've got to eat an elephant. As a matter of fact, I wrote in my journal recently, "I've got a whole elephant to eat, guess I'll start taking a bite at a time". Please don't think because you haven't heard from me that I've got it all figured out, quite the opposite. O.K., so this post is starting to sound a little frazzled....let's just suffice it to say that I covet any prayers you send my way right now and that I know that even though I am not able or capable of doing many things, my God is able.