Saturday, August 1, 2009

The Countdown begins.....

I have not blogged in over a month because I am just overwhelmed and haven't been able to turn to the right or the left, often not even able to form a sentence that makes sense. So, I'll give it my best shot today. The countdown begins for two special events in my life that will take place in the next couple of months. The first event to take place is a women's conference in Lake City, where my friend Barbara (www.theivypath.blogspot.com) has asked me to be one of the guest speakers. I will be writing more on this later. But for now I just want you to know that I don't take this task lightly. I am so unworthy to do this and have confided in Barbara that I have felt completely defeated on more than one occasion since she first asked me to be a part of this ministry. Can I just stop right here and ask you to pray for me....pray for God to keep me ever humble during this time and to anoint any words that would come out of my mouth, for those words to only be words that would glorify and honor our Savior. Aside from being overwhelmed by this, I'm also excited. Several of the women that are helping with this ministry and that will be attending this ministry, knew me before I knew Him. The whole theme of my blog "Who I am Instead" is that I know who I was presalvation, but that through Christ, I am a new creation...and even though I haven't "arrived" anywhere (I am a continuous work in progress), God is constantly purging the "ugly" out of me and for that I am thankful. The second event will take place on October 24th when my only daughter will be marrying a beautiful man named Joe! I absolutely can't wait to have him and his wonderful family in our lives. BUT, those of you that know me, know that I'm a "Mary", usually content to sit and listen and soak up life, not "do" (as Martha).....I'm working hard to incorporate some "Martha" in me and I pray daily for God to make me a "doer" but I am also very much a work in progress there. So, as excited as I am about this special day (that will take place in 84 days to be exact), I am also terrified that I'll fail my daughter with all my inadequacies. Starting today, me and her have a task to take care of every day until "the big day"...Many members of my church family and friends outside of my church have asked if they can do something to help me. I haven't contacted you to help because it feels like we've got to eat an elephant. As a matter of fact, I wrote in my journal recently, "I've got a whole elephant to eat, guess I'll start taking a bite at a time". Please don't think because you haven't heard from me that I've got it all figured out, quite the opposite. O.K., so this post is starting to sound a little frazzled....let's just suffice it to say that I covet any prayers you send my way right now and that I know that even though I am not able or capable of doing many things, my God is able.

5 comments:

Deb said...

Well you know I'm a wanna be Mary but my inner Martha is here for you! Kaitlin, Taryn, Christie and I are planning on coming to hear you speak, btw, so let me know tomorrow what I need to do(buy tickets, directions etc) love you!

Juliefrom florida said...

Dear Sue, That was a well written piece and I know it was from your heart. I had no idea what you have been going through. You are such a loving and giving person! I pray at this time that God will help you and all involved be organized. See you soon! Julie

AngelRhoden said...

I'm so glad to see you on here again. I read about the conference on Barbara's site and was wondering how and when it's going to happen. I'll keep checking both your's and her site for details, looking forward to it. Praying Ephesians 6:19 for you.

Living for the Lord said...

Thank you for posting this! Your blog is such an inspiration to me, you are in my prayers, and i know that you are going to give an awesome talk!

LisaShaw said...

Hi Sue,

I enjoyed reading your message here today and I was really blessed in meeting you today at the Stepping Out Ladies Conference. I just left Barbara's blog and was so encouraged with my visit. I look forward to connecting with each of you again very soon.

Blessings dear sister.

Love you.