God's Will versus my will...

I recently applied for a job that I wasn't sure I wanted...but the circumstances that surrounded it made it quite appealing and motivated me to get up out of bed at 10:30 p.m. and apply online. Then I prayed....and prayed....and prayed. My prayer was simple. God makes it clear in His word that he doesn't need complex prayers. Our simple and honest prayers will work just fine. I was honest with God. I told Him that I wasn't even sure that I wanted this job but if He wanted me to have it, then I would take it. I've been around the block a few times and I know from experience that one can be a miserable soul when their will doesn't line up with God's. So, I sat and waited...went to my interview...and waited some more. I waited 7 weeks and didn't hear anything from the potential employer. At one point I told Mike that maybe I should call them....he questioned, "Why, if God wants you to have it, you'll hear from them"....A well meaning friend called at one point and told me that he would talk with an acquaintance and help me get the position if I desired. I told him that I only wanted the job if God gave it to me...he laughed and said, "But sometimes we have to help the Lord"....But...I knew different. I had accepted a job several years ago and convinced myself that it was God's will, knowing in my heart that it wasn't. Today I received my rejection letter...but I could accept it thankfully, knowing this was not where the Lord wanted me to be. I thank my God, that He can see the much bigger picture and I thank Him for helping me to be patient (a virtue that doesn't come easy for me) during this time.